His penis was pressing against my leg and we were bothsweating heavily.

Well here s my first time story. We didn t use protectionwhich was really dumb and dangerous but except for that Iwouldn t have changed anything! I was a bit of a prude atthe time but John was and still is very gentle with me.John is a long-time friend of my brother s and so we veknown each other for years. He crashed at our house duringwinter break so that he could celebrate Christmas with us.He was 19 at the time. He wears a brace on his right legfrom a car accident from when he was around 7 years old.The night before Christmas everyone had gone to bed earlyexcept me. When I went downstairs to get a snack I saw Johncrying on the sofa. He s a pretty strong guy and I hadnever seen him cry before. He told me that his girlfriendhad broken up with him right before winter break becauseshe didn t want to be seen as a nurse anymore. People hadaccused her of being his girlfriend out of pity for his legand that offended her so much that she left him. I talked tohim trying to cheer him up somehow.We got to talking about relationships. He was a virginwhich made him embarassed but then I said Well I venever even kissed a guy before. Suddenly I felt that it wasa stupid thing to say because John gave me a strange look.I thought Great now he thinks I m a baby.The next thing I knew I felt his lips on my mouth and hishand touched mine. When he brought them away I was suddenlyvery shy. He was leaning over me so close that I couldsmell him and feel how warm he was through his shirt. Hetook my hand and put it on his knee. I jumped up and ranupstairs to my room.The instant the door closed behind me I realized what adope I d been. He d already been rejected by one girl. But Iwas too shy to go back down.After brushing my teeth I left the bathroom and got intobed in the dark. Suddenly I realized that I was lying onsomeone s arm and I was ready to scream but a hand clampeddown over my mouth and John whispered Relax it s me. Icouldn t see him but I felt his breathing on my hair. Ireached up around his neck pulled him down to me andkissed him as hard as I could to show that I really wantedhim. He pressed his body over mine and I felt myselfbecoming wetter. This grown man was unbuttoning my shirt andkissing my mouth my neck my shoulders. I could feel theheat coming from his body and I shook when his handsstroked my legs and pulled down my panties. He could tellhow wet I already was and he kissed me harder.John didn t make me nervous at all. He thought it was funnywhen I tried to unbutton his pants got frustrated and justslid my hands into his pockets. I thought it was funny whenI kept turning away from him when he tried to kiss my mouthand he ended up with a mouthful of hair. We had to stifleour laughter though so that no one would hear us.There were some bad moments though. When he touched my clitfor the first time I twitched and ended up kicking hisright leg. He said something like Auurgh and froze. Myeyes filled with tears but he recovered quickly and told meit was nothing. But even today I still blame myself.When we were both finally naked there were no more jokes.His penis was pressing against my leg and we were bothsweating heavily. He didn t know where to put it in and I took his hands and guided him. It was the worst pain I hadever felt and I ended up biting his lip by accident.Suddenly I felt him ejaculate into me hot fluid gushing upand filling me. He tried to withdraw but I stopped him andsaid Don t. He buried his face in my neck and keptbreathing Sorry sorry sorry. Afterwards there was more heavy petting kissing hugging.I remember the heavy smell that hung in the air. He washedup and went downstairs into the guest room. I opened thewindow to let in some air and saw unbelieving that theclock read 4 AM.John and I are still together four years later but we havehad sex only three times because it is painful for both ofus. I don t care. I love him and we plan on getting marriedin 2000.